And...

Im stuck.
Im SO stuck..
ahh...
im SUCH a loser for posting up another blog...2mins after that last one..
but..
this is how i express...
Typing...and writing!!!

I got so much rehersals...
Work....
and problems to catch up too...
and i got people chasing me down to nail down work...
but its hard.
Very Hard..

My song writing.....
i got a real problem....
I write the 1st verse....
chorus..
bridge...
then i stop.

I cnt finish it.
i dnt kno why...
i NEED to jump over it..

Argh.
Mei - Get a life man!!!!!!


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Impatient...

Hey...
Well... I'm tired. It was rachaels B'day Party yesterday... and wow...it was a all nighter...
Tired.

Anyhow...Im gettin al restless and Isssh...
I had a interview yesterday morning...
and they havn't got back to me..
Im SO IMPATIENT.
I guess i didn't get through...
Like always.
I suck man. I really do suck.
The woman was so nice...
coming across like..."yeh u deffo gonna get a phone call"...
But..wow..
I hear no calls..
i know it's only been one day.....
But...
she said by the end of the week...
If you don't get it.. You havn't got through...
its THURSDAY guys....
ITS THURSDAY!!!!!

Sometimes i just wanna GIVE UP!
i really do...
But thats just not the solution to it all...
Ahhh...someone just help me.

I'm going half crazy and iiiisssssh!!! Becoming impatient.
i wanna kill someone....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I got to a Music college full of suckers.
The work seem irrelevant...
the people are full on crap there...
Seriously...
Shit popperz.

Actually not just the Music college..
MOST people actually...
People in general u meet...
the "assosciates"...

Ah. Friends come and go i guess....

Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh Ahh!!!!!!!!

Mei

The Race...

Hey..

I just need to type this... because i feel so locked up.

Life seems to go real quick... and i feel lost.

Right about now, i feel like im in a playground...

and there's a whole group of us running towards a massive prize or some sort....

Everyone is running...

Running...... Running...

But... im losing my breath!

Im left behind... and im all alone...Lost... in the middle of NOWHERE!

I really wish i could just fly away... into a tropical island..and not care about anything.

Im wrapped up in Regret... Promises... Lies... Struggle... Fakeness... Dreams... Life.

Do i deserve a position in life?

Mei -

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